Something that has been on my heart today and over the last few weeks is about total TRUST. Something of like a theme right now in my life. I have had some major changes in my life over the last few years. Those things could have shaken me to the core but instead they have totally redefined my relationship with CHRIST. That may seem weird or strange to some but in those times of desperation and when i totally have no idea in what to do are some of the sweetest time between the LORD and I. That is where I am at right now. Having those days that I would rather take the sheets and cover my head up and don't come out but life goes on. Right now I really can't see my way right now but I do know who is leading my way. He is doing so much in my life right now that its beyond me. He is teaching me not to just trust in him but to just trust him.
Ok, don't think that I am all that to come up with that but its in Praying God's WORD by Beth Moore. When I read this again and heard it, it so resonated with my heart.
For me, I just want to trust him. Not for what he does but just for who he is.
It says it best in Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths. This is something that I memorized long ago but its something that I am really mediating on right now. My own thinking can get me into so much trouble. I can think that something is what it is when its not that way at all. If I allow Satan to do so,I can go into a deep depression and so on. But acknowledging him is more than knowing him but really realizing that its GOD and his ways are best. He guides me when I don't see or understand the way.
My prayer would be that he would totally again change my mindset. What I think about I want to be about him. Again, God's work in me is never finished. I am thankful for that.
I have spent so much time on my knees over the last week or so because of pain in my heart but GOD is tenderly healing me. Now it will take time but I am thankful for his tender and compassion in me. Thorugh it, I am made strong as I daily depend on him.
The words ALL IN ALL as written by Dennis Jernigan come to my heart tonight...
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all
Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all
Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I get dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name