Wanting him

Ok. I have been going through a journey the last few years. There have been ups and downs. There are things that are apart of my life that I just need to accept them as they are. I would love for them to be different and I have done all I know to do to change them. That however, is the problem. Its all been about me and my own strength. This past week I just broke down. I cried and I grieved the whole situation.

Something that GOD has been teaching me is just trust him. But today its more than that. My dad is visiting me and its been a great time together. I am a daddy's girl and proud! He told me something that may seem simple to some but he said he wanted to spend time with me. This really hit my heart. Not that my earthly father loves me but that my heavenly Father does. All he wants from me is for me to know that he wants to spend time with me. In the midst of it all that all I want is him. I want him more than anything. Even as I write this post I am overcome by the love of my Abba, my Daddy. I want him and his desires to be mine. My desire would be that he would change my mindset about any and all that is not of him. Finally, my desire is to be what he wants me to be. What I want to be is a totally 100% devoted in love with my GOD. Am I there yet? No way, will I ever be? No way.. But I am on that journey. That is what I want. I want you LORD.

Lord, I love you, I adore you. You are mine. I am unworthy of your love but you are mine. I love you , I adore you, I worship you.
You were there when I was so alone. You were there with me in the pit. And you are still here. You are my Saviour and my GOD. Again, I lay my all at your feet. I adore you, Father. I am yours...

Laura