Restless and Anxious

I am at work tonight and my internal schedule is so off! I usually work days but I am working nights for the next few days.
The LORD again is always teaching me to just trust him when I can't see my way. That is how I feel right now. By looking with my eyes things seem un-certain and they are. God is teaching me the lesson right now of just resting in him. This is just accepting some situations for what they are. I have tried to change them and well I can not. Duh, that is what the LORD is trying to teach me.

Something that I heard by a pastor this past week has so challenged my heart. He said that when I worry it is a control issue. When I am restless it is a authority issue. Now that has hit me right between the eyes. I am a control freak about some things and well when things are not going my way I get anxious and its because I am not in control. But I am learning this lesson the hard way again that I AM NOT IN CONTROL! What needs to happen is for Laura to get off the throne and let GOD guide me! Sounds simple and yet I make it so difficult. I even talked to the LORD today of why its so hard to let go of a certain situation and again he tells my spirit to LET IT GO! Am I there yet, No but I so want to be!
Finally, it says in Psalms 23:2 that he makes us to lie down in green pastures. What the pastor says this means is that GOD has to make us lie down for us to have our needs met. But what do I do? I come up with anxiety and become frustrated. All GOD wants to do is to meet my needs but I have to lie down and rest in him. Its when I lie down and rest in him that all my needs are met. When I rest in him is where I find peace and contentment. This is my journey right now.
No matter what journey I am on I am so thankful of GOD's presence in my life. Not only his presence but his continued work. I am not where I want to be but praise the LORD I am not where I was!
Love to you all!