Where you at?

My heart tonight is really at a place that I don't even know how to describe. I have been struggling today with who am I going to follow when it comes to eating things that my body shouldn't be consuming. This may seem like to some that I keep dealing with this but I am so digusted with myself. I have failed the LORD. That is something that even right now brings tears to my eyes.
The issue is this... trust. I know what it is but like it says in Romans I do what I should do even though I don't want to do it. Does it make sense, no! So I have allowed Satan to beat me down all day today. The thoughts that he told me went from I am not worth it and you are not loved. Boy, that seems to be Satan's tool with me. Then I sat down in my chair and the LORD revealed something to me. I am worth it not because of anything I have done but becaue of who HE is. He is the I AM. He is everything. My Abba does love and I am his. So tonight I ask you to really ask who do you trust? For me, I love the LORD more than I can express. But knowing I feel defeated in this area just does not hurt me but it must hurt my Father even more.
That is where I am at tonight.
So, right now wherever you are at, close your eyes. Baske in his presence. He loves us. I love him. I adore him.